Why give? answer is Why not?
Don’t wish bad things to people who have hurt you, instead pray for peace and joy for them. Forgiving them removes the power to hold you hostage in the fear you feel that they will hurt you again.
Give yourself permission to be happy.
Seek GOD.
If people could only see your heart and not your outer shell, what will they see? Will your heart be full of love, mercy, grace, forgiveness, joy, peace, giving and receiving gifts, service or will it be full of the past baggage of hurt, hate that clogs up the arteries, selfishness that only wants the good stuff for itself and not share with other organs, spite, gossip, and evil? How you dress your shell God created is to honor God but the Giver of Life sees our hearts first. What motives do you have in your heart? Are they for good or for your own selfish gain?